Have you ever just sat somewhere and wondered what was right? Lately i've been caught with this lost look on my face....if i were consciously doing anything i'd imagine its thinking...now, since its not a conscious action i couldnt tell you what it is im thinking about. (once again folks i apologize for my lack of punctuation and such but i just really dont feel like indulging in that extra time whether or not it be a few seconds...) carrying on, i realize that i think that i have been thinking about my life, i may have realized the things that i want and the things that i continuously find more and more trivial. i feel like maybe i've spent some of my time figuring out who i am and who i want to be...but then again im young so i am frequently told therefore i have no idea what i want. pressing on, i think i may have (temporarily) decided what i'd like in my life...here are some.
1) I more than anything want to find someone to spend my time with. most of my time. and i want it to be someone that will enjoy it for all that it is whether it is nothing or the most awesome thing in the whole world. no one wants to be alone so i suppose this is quite a common request but in a life that lacks in permanent figures, this is a big thing for me. I want someone that is completely mine, maybe not completly but everyone knows how i feel about sharing. i know what i want them to be like and our memories to be made play in my head like theyre already there, so i hope this one comes soon....im not getting any younger
2) I want to own my old house. i've heard so many things like how its in a bad neighborhood and stuff but i love it. its my favorite house ever...i dont really have a reason why but if i could have the world my way it would be my house and it would have the old porch swing on the front deck and it would be super amazing and we would hide under the stairs like old times....
3) I want a job i thoroughly enjoy. everyone wants this but i dont think i could last "sucking it up" at some job just to make my ends meet. i tend to hate settling therefore i highly doubt my ability to do it forever....
In realization of life and the people around me i understand that these things are really broad and highly saught after by many people if not all but i'm constantly told documentation beats conversation, so if anyone is wondering why it is i am doing something, its most likely in an attempt to get closer to one of these things. if you choose to call me out on some wreckless shenanigans i will in turn try to manipulate whatever shenanigans into one of these life goals: just a little warning.
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