today's truths

I am falling apart. ripping at the seams. slowly withering into a whole new definition of nothing. i feel like everything that i enjoy or want or desire is slowly slipping out of my reach. my lack of ability to capitalize on anything seems to come into a whole new light. who am i anymore but a ploy fir a reality's game. i feel like a no body. i cant decide to move or not to scream or not to cry or not and my lack of decision does nothing but leave me silent. the truth is i hate this place. i am slowly starting to hate everthing about it. along with the growth of hatred i am slowly resenting myself for my lack of truth that i tend to expell onto everyone around me. but more than that i wonder why you havent seen it. if you have why havent you asked. im screaming the only way i know how. silently.